The first time I looked at my vulva in the mirror after giving birth, I think I went into shock.
I had no idea what to expect…because no one talks about what your vulva could look like after giving birth.
It’s so taboo, hidden and hush-hush.
(It was all totally “normal” by the way, whatever that word means. Every womxn and vulva owner is different.)
I’m not going to lie…it took me a few weeks to a month before I felt even slightly comfortable looking at my vulva.
I’m speaking from the experience of someone who has spent the past five years of her life looking at her pussy almost daily and doing tons of sexual healing work and awakening practices to connect back to my pussy and erotic nature.
So for me, it was quite tender and vulnerable to see my pussy in a way that I’d never seen her before.
Raw. Open. Bleeding. Swollen. Releasing birth matter.
It really tested my ability to approve of and love my WHOLE self, including the vulva and vagina that had changed after giving birth.
I had a feeling that it was changed forever in one sense and that it would also go back to being somewhat similar (yet still different) to how it was before in certain ways…with the right healing practices — which I’ll share in this video — and time.
I’ll never have my “old vagina or body back” and I don’t want it back. I’m interested in loving and pleasuring this rebirthed pussy and body.
I’m interested in getting juicier and more erotic every single year as I get older.
I also think that my vagina healed up a lot faster than some womxn or birthers might experience.
Healing takes time and I’m still on the journey one year later, but there were some initial postpartum rituals that I did within the first few months that really helped me to heal, fall in love with my pussy and stay connected to my eroticism in those initial few months of postpartum.
RESOURCES MENTIONED IN THIS VIDEO:
Keli Garza steamychick.com (you can find vagina steam chairs, practitioners, articles, videos, tutorials, herbs, etc. here)
Steam chairs (sauna marketplace) — I originally got my chair HERE
5 Things No One Tells You About Sex After Baby (video)
How to Give Yourself a Pussy Massage (video)
The Sex Jam by Wild & Vibrant
Shadow: Pussy Anointing Oil by Wild & Vibrant
Obisidan Wands by Chakrubs — the Shadow Line
Pussy Breathing Ritual (video)
Sexual Shadow Work & Integration Practices (video)
My 28-Day Jade Egg Course – 7 Jade Egg Secrets Initiation
You can download my 7 Jade Egg Secrets for Deeper Vaginal Pleasure and Orgasms ebook here to get started on your practice.
With Eros & Love,
x
Amber